after finally returned to my normal emotional state, I decided to have a thing as a subject of my thoughts. no, unlike some of my other friends (not the defective ones), I will not discuss about love or something like that. Romantic love is just... incomprehensible for me. I can't even understand myself when I got that feeling, and I can't even explain my motives or thoughts or reasoning behind my acts at that time. Such feeling is scarily distractive and beyond logic, so I guess I'll pass on discussing about such topic.
Okay. the topic is this: Atheism. ...and Indonesia.
Do you believe in God? I don't.
In western countries, you have the right to choose whether you believe in God or not. Atheism is a common thing and people can gain access to about anything easily regardless of their religious beliefs. Here, in Indonesia, a "religious" and FREE country, atheism doesn't have any legal support. Funny, a free country that doesn't give its people the freedom to acknowledge the existence of God or not...
And since most people in Indonesia doesn't have an access to gain proper education, they either hopelessly clung to the major religion without thinking about it first, or picking their religion just so they wouldn't be accused of being a communist. First, during Soeharto's reign of "New Order", communism is heavily suppressed, if not exterminated. So, that kind of fear is still understandable. Second, atheism is different than communism. Atheism just concerns that someone or something called "God" exists or not, while communism refers to the equality of the people - a society without difference, including religions and social classes.
Well, I don't believe in a totally equal world without social classes (without ion-voltage difference, our nerves wouldn't be able to transmit impulses - that means, they can't work - and without a working nerve system, we're a little better than dead. and in my opinion, the universe is a magnified version of human body - as human body is a scaled-down fractal image of the whole universe) but I support the idea of redistribution of wealth - from the extremely rich to the overly poor and such.
Back to Atheism. I believe, that religion is something that humans make. And religion is a major barrier to get humans to unite. Some examples:
Case 1, happened to a family I know - a certain Islamic family refused a marriage between their daughter with her Christian boyfriend (no, her boyfriend's name is not "Christian" ^^) UNLESS the guy turned his religion and converted into a Muslim.
* comments: I think it's pretty common thing in any religion. Marriage refused just because of difference in their spiritual belief...
Case 2, I think this happens to most of us - parents gave the religion they believe in to their children, even forcefully indoctrinize their children to believe in that religion - without giving the child a freedom to chose the religion as they like. Well, my family still can't accept the fact that their son denies the existence of God. Yeah, my family is an extremely religious Catholic - especially my mom ^^.
Hah. I think what matters are not whether a human believes in God or not. What matters are the things he do and his intentions. Humanity doesn't need religion, but religion is your freedom to accept or to deny.
Atheism should be approved in Indonesia. I strongly support this! And for once, please SHUT THE FUCK UP, members of Majelis Ulama Indonesia. You're just bunch of uneducated, narrow-minded, religious pricks who can't accept any point of view except your own. You guys need to be injected with a pig blood, you know. You'll be surprised when you realize that pig has so much similarities to you.
Friday, June 19, 2009
Thursday, June 18, 2009
CANCEL!!!
Supposedly, today, June 19th at 11.00 A.M., I shall attend a skirmish or wargames match with my buddies. I'm a member of an Airsoft Forum, and 2 weeks ago I saw a nice place to play Airsoft in Sunter. Since it's holiday and so, I arranged the event along with my 2 buddies, and I made contact with the field's owner - being I'm the only forum member. So, finally we got about 10 participants and the date is set on June 17th. But then, it turns out that June 17th is also the graduation day of some of the participants (it's a delayed graduation due to the incompetency of the government to arrange National Exams), so I changed the date into Friday, June 19th. Most of the participants positively confirmed the change.
But when June 19th comes, what do I get? More CANCEL notifications - just 1-2 hours BEFORE the game start. Seriously, can't you guys notify cancellations sooner?
This way, I have no options left but to cancel the whole event - and thus lost the trust and respect from the field owner, who is also an acquaintance of mine in the forum. He just laughed at me and blurts my "incompetence" on organizing a simple skirmish event with my friends. I got humiliated because of someone else's fault. Nice.
now I feel mixed feelings of angry, ashamed, hatred, disappointment, and frustration... and I can't describe how I really want to turn these guys into my personal cadavers..
next time, try to keep your words, assholes. when you say you'd join, prove it. don't run away like a chicken by notifying "cancel" just hours before...
But when June 19th comes, what do I get? More CANCEL notifications - just 1-2 hours BEFORE the game start. Seriously, can't you guys notify cancellations sooner?
This way, I have no options left but to cancel the whole event - and thus lost the trust and respect from the field owner, who is also an acquaintance of mine in the forum. He just laughed at me and blurts my "incompetence" on organizing a simple skirmish event with my friends. I got humiliated because of someone else's fault. Nice.
now I feel mixed feelings of angry, ashamed, hatred, disappointment, and frustration... and I can't describe how I really want to turn these guys into my personal cadavers..
next time, try to keep your words, assholes. when you say you'd join, prove it. don't run away like a chicken by notifying "cancel" just hours before...
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Supernatural (TV series) & Evangelion
Haven't watched TV for quite some time, and yesterday I watched the TV series "Supernatural" when my sister played the DVD she just got. The story is about the Winchester brothers whose job was a monster-and-demon hunter. Quite interesting story, with some great action, a little drama, hilarious Hollywood jokes, and - the most important part according to my sister - cute & handsome guys ^^.
So, yesterday I watched the final episodes of season 4. What I found quite intriguing was the similarities of the ideas with Hideaki Anno's Neon Genesis Evangelion. Strange, huh? Well, I'll mention some things that I found to be resembling Evangelion:
- Both features the character Lilith. In EVA, Lilith is the Black-Moon Angel and the source of mankind (Lilim)... in Supernatural, Lilith is the so-called first demon created by Lucifer (remember, Lilith is Adam's first wife who refuses to obey him, according to some religious literatures).
...And both of them play important part in the series: bringing forth the End of the World... or the Instrumentality Project ^^
- Both features being called Angels. While in EVA the Angels are primarily the main antagonist a.k.a. the-ones-that-need-to-be-beaten-by-the-protagonist (Rei, Asuka, and Baka Shinji)throughout most of the series, in Supernatural Angels are pretty much like SEELE's counterparts.
They don't work directly, but performing shady, background, and stealth jobs to make things happen according to the destined fate... or the so-called "God's Will". and some Angels have the hidden agendas of their own, and using humans to perform their job. Pretty much like Keel Lorenz and Gendo Ikari using each other and other people to get their job done.
- Both features the end of the world. And what must be done to end the world is pretty much the same too!
*spoiler warning* In Supernatural, to release Lucifer from his prison, some sacrifices must be made - i.e. by breaking 66 seals which would unlock the prison gate, and apparently the last seal is a demon. The demon dies, the seal is broken, and Lucifer is free and ready to brought the Armageddon. See? that's pretty much like killing all the Angels are the key to brought Human Instrumentality Project into reality in EVA.
- For some reason, the End of the World is pretty much the same thing: New World without war, pain, and suffering, and all negative traits you can think of. All that is left is peace. and... both of the main characters refuse the offer to achieve such world. Shinji wants to live as a separate entity at the final moments of Human Instrumentality Project, and the main chara of Supernatural chose to live as a human in our imperfect world rather than achieving glory and peace at the cost of his brother's life. Pretty much like that...
**Though in the end, we don't know whether Shinji finally returned to Earth and live as a human with the others (the ending scene can be seen as Shinji and the others reverting back to human form and live on earth as they were, but it is also speculatively an end where it's only Shinji's concept of Heaven... nobody is returning to our world and everyone is simply dead. That's the End of Evangelion in my mind... but then again, that's the beauty of the EVA series: you can interpret the ending as you like - ambiguous till the end like V from V for Vendetta ^^), he did make the choice to not merge all human souls into one entity. (after turning the whole world into a primordial soup, Rei had gone through so far collecting the whole souls of humans, and after battling with MP EVAs and Asuka [illustratively] died, and all other stuff, you changed your mind... you're really BAKA SHINJI!!!)
- ah, both uses quite similar names for the Angels! Those who watched EVA would've recognized the name with -el suffix as the name of the Angels, like Uriel, Castiel, etc... and certain angels with Higher Level doesn't use the -el suffix, Zachariah in Supernaturan and Tabris for example - a.k.a. Nagisa Kaworu the gay-ish red-eyed boy with Impenetrable AT-Field and ability to control EVA outside the plug ^^
ahh... I missed Evangelion too much :D
That's probably the best Anime I've ever watched. Not at the quality of the animation, nor the characters, but simply the story and ideas behind them. And I like stories that requires quite some thinking...
Let's hope Rebuild of Evangelion 2.0 to be released as soon as possible. I'm curious about EVA-05 and the new pilot... Makinami Mari Illustrious. Still using the name of a WW II ship as a character name, I see. And since Gainax changed my beloved Asuka's name into Shikinami, why don't you change Kaworu's name into King George V Nagisanami, or Shinji's name into Scharnhorst Ikarinami? ^^
or Pen-pennami
and Aida Kensukenami
and Misato Katsuraginami
also Toji Suzuharanami
....
.....
......
ah dammit, Soryu Asuka Langley was a good name!
So, yesterday I watched the final episodes of season 4. What I found quite intriguing was the similarities of the ideas with Hideaki Anno's Neon Genesis Evangelion. Strange, huh? Well, I'll mention some things that I found to be resembling Evangelion:
- Both features the character Lilith. In EVA, Lilith is the Black-Moon Angel and the source of mankind (Lilim)... in Supernatural, Lilith is the so-called first demon created by Lucifer (remember, Lilith is Adam's first wife who refuses to obey him, according to some religious literatures).
...And both of them play important part in the series: bringing forth the End of the World... or the Instrumentality Project ^^
- Both features being called Angels. While in EVA the Angels are primarily the main antagonist a.k.a. the-ones-that-need-to-be-beaten-by-the-protagonist (Rei, Asuka, and Baka Shinji)throughout most of the series, in Supernatural Angels are pretty much like SEELE's counterparts.
They don't work directly, but performing shady, background, and stealth jobs to make things happen according to the destined fate... or the so-called "God's Will". and some Angels have the hidden agendas of their own, and using humans to perform their job. Pretty much like Keel Lorenz and Gendo Ikari using each other and other people to get their job done.
- Both features the end of the world. And what must be done to end the world is pretty much the same too!
*spoiler warning* In Supernatural, to release Lucifer from his prison, some sacrifices must be made - i.e. by breaking 66 seals which would unlock the prison gate, and apparently the last seal is a demon. The demon dies, the seal is broken, and Lucifer is free and ready to brought the Armageddon. See? that's pretty much like killing all the Angels are the key to brought Human Instrumentality Project into reality in EVA.
- For some reason, the End of the World is pretty much the same thing: New World without war, pain, and suffering, and all negative traits you can think of. All that is left is peace. and... both of the main characters refuse the offer to achieve such world. Shinji wants to live as a separate entity at the final moments of Human Instrumentality Project, and the main chara of Supernatural chose to live as a human in our imperfect world rather than achieving glory and peace at the cost of his brother's life. Pretty much like that...
**Though in the end, we don't know whether Shinji finally returned to Earth and live as a human with the others (the ending scene can be seen as Shinji and the others reverting back to human form and live on earth as they were, but it is also speculatively an end where it's only Shinji's concept of Heaven... nobody is returning to our world and everyone is simply dead. That's the End of Evangelion in my mind... but then again, that's the beauty of the EVA series: you can interpret the ending as you like - ambiguous till the end like V from V for Vendetta ^^), he did make the choice to not merge all human souls into one entity. (after turning the whole world into a primordial soup, Rei had gone through so far collecting the whole souls of humans, and after battling with MP EVAs and Asuka [illustratively] died, and all other stuff, you changed your mind... you're really BAKA SHINJI!!!)
- ah, both uses quite similar names for the Angels! Those who watched EVA would've recognized the name with -el suffix as the name of the Angels, like Uriel, Castiel, etc... and certain angels with Higher Level doesn't use the -el suffix, Zachariah in Supernaturan and Tabris for example - a.k.a. Nagisa Kaworu the gay-ish red-eyed boy with Impenetrable AT-Field and ability to control EVA outside the plug ^^
ahh... I missed Evangelion too much :D
That's probably the best Anime I've ever watched. Not at the quality of the animation, nor the characters, but simply the story and ideas behind them. And I like stories that requires quite some thinking...
Let's hope Rebuild of Evangelion 2.0 to be released as soon as possible. I'm curious about EVA-05 and the new pilot... Makinami Mari Illustrious. Still using the name of a WW II ship as a character name, I see. And since Gainax changed my beloved Asuka's name into Shikinami, why don't you change Kaworu's name into King George V Nagisanami, or Shinji's name into Scharnhorst Ikarinami? ^^
or Pen-pennami
and Aida Kensukenami
and Misato Katsuraginami
also Toji Suzuharanami
....
.....
......
ah dammit, Soryu Asuka Langley was a good name!
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Project Babylon
Officially, my next GUNPLA project would be called "Project Babylon".
It shall be my first attempt to combine scratch-building, GUNPLA assembly, hand-brushing, and maybe sculpting and kitbash. Maybe this one is a less ambitious project than my Sinanju Project (which is still unfinished), but surely this one wouldn't be less difficult.
The theme is my favorite character from Fate / Stay Night, Gilgamesh ^^ - hence the Project is called "Babylon". For those who doesn't know about Gilgamesh, here's the pic and link to some details:
"I SHALL PWNZ YOU ALL, LOWLIFE!"
Little details about concept that is going on inside my head:
Painting - simple. just paint it all gold, since Gilgamesh uses a golden armor... but, Which gold? I still can't decide between ACE Hardware's frame color Gold, Tamiya Leaf Gold, Testors Metallic Enamel Gold, or my old buddy Mr.Color Gold.
Decals - need to make custom decals. Gilgamesh's cuneiform markings on his armor and sword should be done during holiday
Weaponry - this one needs scratch build and/or sculpting. Need to make a 12-15 cm long replica of Gilgamesh's sword Ea - the one and only Anti-World Noble Phantasm ^^
and also some kitbashing maybe, especially funnels. I want to simulate Gilgamesh's Gate of Babylon with numerous funnels instead of polearm and swords ^^
and the most important thing... which MS should I pick as the basis for the project?! which MS resembles Gilgamesh's attitude and armor?
I still can't decide... MG Zeta Plus C1 or A1 is the major candidate, followed closely by MG RX-178 Gundam Mk II and MG Hyaku-shiki... any suggestions? I don't really like the designs from SEED and 00, so Universal Century shall be the era of my choice...
ahh... hell... I need to study again for Thursday's SPSS exams!
and here's some random Azu-nyan pic ^^
I'm also in a K-On! fever right now :D
Azu-nyan is my current favorite girl, followed closely by Mugi, Mio, Yui & Ui... and don't forget the nutty airhead Sawako-sensei ^^
K-On! is just hilarious... and the music really gets to me!
yup, need to get back to studying! see ya later, my blog!
* Sinanju, please don't be mad at me... T.T
It shall be my first attempt to combine scratch-building, GUNPLA assembly, hand-brushing, and maybe sculpting and kitbash. Maybe this one is a less ambitious project than my Sinanju Project (which is still unfinished), but surely this one wouldn't be less difficult.
The theme is my favorite character from Fate / Stay Night, Gilgamesh ^^ - hence the Project is called "Babylon". For those who doesn't know about Gilgamesh, here's the pic and link to some details:
"I SHALL PWNZ YOU ALL, LOWLIFE!"
Little details about concept that is going on inside my head:
Painting - simple. just paint it all gold, since Gilgamesh uses a golden armor... but, Which gold? I still can't decide between ACE Hardware's frame color Gold, Tamiya Leaf Gold, Testors Metallic Enamel Gold, or my old buddy Mr.Color Gold.
Decals - need to make custom decals. Gilgamesh's cuneiform markings on his armor and sword should be done during holiday
Weaponry - this one needs scratch build and/or sculpting. Need to make a 12-15 cm long replica of Gilgamesh's sword Ea - the one and only Anti-World Noble Phantasm ^^
and also some kitbashing maybe, especially funnels. I want to simulate Gilgamesh's Gate of Babylon with numerous funnels instead of polearm and swords ^^
and the most important thing... which MS should I pick as the basis for the project?! which MS resembles Gilgamesh's attitude and armor?
I still can't decide... MG Zeta Plus C1 or A1 is the major candidate, followed closely by MG RX-178 Gundam Mk II and MG Hyaku-shiki... any suggestions? I don't really like the designs from SEED and 00, so Universal Century shall be the era of my choice...
ahh... hell... I need to study again for Thursday's SPSS exams!
and here's some random Azu-nyan pic ^^
I'm also in a K-On! fever right now :D
Azu-nyan is my current favorite girl, followed closely by Mugi, Mio, Yui & Ui... and don't forget the nutty airhead Sawako-sensei ^^
K-On! is just hilarious... and the music really gets to me!
yup, need to get back to studying! see ya later, my blog!
* Sinanju, please don't be mad at me... T.T
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